Thinking it's time for a change

Over the past few months and now I tried covering up myself depression really..(but everyone can see right through me....).lately I just been thinking about leaving Winnipeg moving on to something else something bigger but there is so much changing here..everyone I know has goals, dreams and I'm afraid of what I'm going to miss of whos seeing who, whos doing what...I just don't know Maybe it's the fact that I can't accept change in my life when something bad happens to me I don't go to the postive root of it I go rush to up most negitive one there can be I know stupied but thats' how everything happens.....But the real matter for me now is how to deal with myself...I hate my emotions and my Feelings when I have someone on my mind like an ex or what not i can't get her outta my head but when inthe long run i think about there will be other girls out there i guess thats the main reason i been down for the past few months o well really its time for me to say its water under the bridge and to hopefully not burn my bridge before anything so if i ever burn a page from my past i will know why i can't find it ^-^ well I will post up a drawing or comic up tomorrow so till then night! maybe i will make a post later tonight