Liu's Nightmares and Silent Hope

Believe

2012-01-07T02:08:00.001-06:00

No matter how distantly separated

The dream will never end

Holding out my fingers in the dry wind

I gulped down on sigh

Unhealable pain, anxiety towards the unknown

I cannot move from here

In the boundary line of light and shadow, I searched the lost dream

One more time, release oneself to that place

While counting the nights that don't clear out

Won't ever (ever) forget about the days of crying

No matter how far the future (tomorrow) is

Surely we will (Stand up So) won't lose

Now guiding this era we are Vanguard

Sometimes youth is easy to break

Being captured by the internal shadow

My own strength, I don't know it

Waiting for the moment (time) to open my eyes

When the weak self is overcame, a new path will open

Push on loudly towards the great evolution

Opening the gate (door) of the heart

Surpassing the limit, more (more) grand

Embracing the determination and running

Vowing in my chest (never again) to not run away

Now light to this world we are Vanguard

No matter how distantly separated

We are…

While counting the nights that don't clear out

Won't ever (ever) forget about the days of crying

No matter how far the future (tomorrow) is

Surely we will (Stand up So) won't lose

Now guiding this era we are Vanguard

blaaah!!!

2011-11-15T01:11:00.002-06:00

well my god a blog post!

Nothing exciting just sitting here relaying out myself and goals and Doujin stories

so much to look at and so much to re-draw and to re-think intros I have my names all laid out nicely wondering no this needs more of a action feeling here or this needs to be a little funny

but over all just my characters I'm no longer confident in them i already started to redraw them and adding new stuff here and there and i got pissed off with my style of drawing I still want to improve but whats the point anymore..just whats the...

know what lets leave it there no point being pissed off about it

look a real!

2011-09-12T20:29:00.002-05:00

hahaha look a real post in how many years?

Spiral

2011-09-06T21:23:00.000-05:00

nothing new just some lyrics!

I wander in a trap in endless night
Losing the meaning of existence itself
I can't return to the past, Don't you dare to know

Crumbling are all things that I believe
I don't want to see the reality on my darkest days
I can't get out of my circumstances, Don't know where to go

Do you know that "hope" is fake in this world
And "despair" is the only truth I've got
So slash apart the darkness

I'm restless at ∞, Why I must be bleeding?
I can't escape from the melancholy
I'm struggling at my limit, at the verge of going mad, Because it will never end
J'ai plus rien a croire
Cette vie qu'est-ce qu'il y a a voir?
I'm no match for this suffering world!

En levant les yeux, il n'y a rien a faire
J'ai plus envie de me mentir a moi meme
Mais, ces realites qui defoncent mon esprit

Pourquoi on vit? Pourquoi cet endroit?
Ou aller se plaindre? Qui me comprendra?
Ou est cette putain de verite?

S'egorger toujours tout le temps, qui voudra me faire peine a moi?
Comme quoi? Comme qui? Comme-ci comme-ca, sans raison, oh Dieu pourquoi?
Cette vie infernale
Continue jusqu'a ma finale
J'espere ma liberte

Ne pense pas qu'on passe sur un chemin etendu
C'est qu'une etape, et tape le chemin attendu
C'est qu'une etape, et tape le chemin attendu
C'est qu'une etape, et tape le chemin attendu
Personna essaye de comprendre ce que l'on dit
J'ai plus de dix ans! T'es con ou quoi?

I want to destroy the ∞, That's my last scream!
I can't avoid the reality
No Pain No Gain, I'll absolutely resist it If really there is an end
A quoi je m'attends?
Apocalypse maintenant
Unchanging is this suffering world!

In my World

2011-08-31T19:50:00.002-05:00

Dark side in my heart is
a grief from the past that cannot be wiped away.
It's alright, for I don't actually give a damn.
I fired my blaster, and stretched out my hands.
I've detached my life from myself,
so that I could gaze into the picture frame.
However, in there, there's no proof of my existence,
and I can barely even protect my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has been like this for a while.
And then, everyone has disappeared off it...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

Dark cloud in my heart is
clearing up, and light is shining onto my path.
Let's fight, without any fear,
with a double-edged sword brandished over our head.
My life is not so lonesome,
for I am being guided by the voices of my comrades.
With the proof of my existence reaffirmed,
I released my very self.

The path I've been avoiding and unable to pass has always been like this.
Now my hesitation has completely dissipated...

Destiny can eat shit and die.
I will be a reckless daredevil and cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I can hear an aria of love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or weak grumblings, I have already crushed them with my hands.
The more I threw it away, the more precious it became;
it's my precious life.

Destiny can eat shit and die.
If I can't achieve something, I will cry for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
an aria of love resounds.
Things such as the distorted real world, twisted wishes,
or the ideals and tomorrows that are crumbling away,
they've become so tedious that I want to just throw them away.
Good bye, precious life.

I will simply repaint my destiny.
Even if I become covered in wounds, I'll try for pride.
Ah, ah, ah, alone in my world,
I still sing about love.
Things such as the writhed world, wishes to be fulfilled,
or the bond and the future we are starting to build up and consolidate,
they are still precious in the end even when I have thrown them away.
It's my precious life.

Read More ROOKiEZ is PUNK'D - In My World Lyrics ~ Lyrical Dream http://ayiklyric.blogspot.com/2011/08/rookiez-is-punkd-in-my-world-lyrics.html#ixzz1WuxHCs2X

KIBAGO OUTRAGED!!!

2011-08-20T00:17:00.003-05:00

nothing new with me just some more screenshots

MORE POKEMON IMAGES!!!rr

2011-08-02T22:09:00.000-05:00

wallpapers due to laziness

2011-08-02T12:30:00.002-05:00

feel

2011-07-12T20:41:00.001-05:00

Beat or listen or feel, quartet.
Catch or think or sing, quartet.
What I tell you is just "that is it, as you like. "

Itsumo wa shizuka de
Toki ni haurusakute
Hikari to kage wa kyou mo kurashiteru

Midareta kibun wo
Chuningu shite
Kaihougen wo daionryou de
Toki houcchitai na

Owaranai oni gokko wa
Dareka no tsugou de kurikaesu
Osanai koro no omoide wo

Arayuru kido airaku joukei
Chiri bame doko nimonai zoukei wo
Omone te tsuranatte iku
Ichigo ichi e no sakura no youna

Ureshi kunatte tobidashi te mukatsuite keritoba shite
Kuyashi kunatte uran de tte atarimae darou
Oburato ni tsutsun dara taberarete oshimai
Nanda kamuzu kayui na

Yottsu no kanjou ga iki majitte
Tsugi tsugi ni shoku wo nashite
Kono machi ga shiawase ni natte
Song urai no contrast wo kanade teirunda yo

Beat or listen or feel, quartet.
Catch or think or sing, quartet.
What I tell you is just "that is it, as you like. "

Shiranai koto nanka uya
Muya ni shite
Headphnes wo daionryou de
Machi wo iki taina

Tori to menai kakurenbo wa
Dareka no aizu de uchidomete
Mata you ga noboru madeo azuke

Too shy na kid, "I like it. "
Sore dake iereba it's alright
Kurakute mo kagayaite iru
Tokai ni saku yozakura no youna

Kirei ni mekki nuritakutte
Kitanai tokoro misenai de
Wo namida choudai houfutsu tte fuzakenna yo
Oburato ni tsutsun dara taberarete oshimai
Nanika choushi ga kuruu ndayo

Yottsu no kanjou ga uzumaki ite
Jibun ni atta kotae wo dashite
Original harikentte
Waracchi yauke donan daka baka ni wa dekinai nda yo

Ureshi kunatte tobidashi te mukatsuite keritoba shite
Kuyashi kunatte uran de tte atarimae darou
Oburato ni tsutsun dara taberarete oshimai
Nanda kamuzu kayui na

Yottsu no kanjou ga iki majitte
Tsugi tsugi ni shoku wo na shite
Kono machi ga shiawase ni natte
Song urai no contrast wo kanade teirunda yo

Beat or listen or feel, quartet.
Catch or think or sing, quartet.
What I tell you is just "that is it, as you like. "

Beat or listen or feel, quartet.
Catch or think or sing, quartet.
What I tell you is just "that is it, as you like. "

IMAGES!!!!

2011-07-04T00:14:00.002-05:00

...

2011-06-28T23:07:00.001-05:00

I really was lonely, until I met you

I told myself it was easier being alone, but I was lying to myself

Even though our favourite books and hobbies don't match at all

It was you alone, who nodded and gave me…..

whoa whoa whoa!!

2011-06-26T21:13:00.002-05:00

kay! saving money for this!! lol

more random images

2011-06-21T22:21:00.001-05:00

exciting!

2011-06-19T16:30:00.002-05:00

Waa adorable!!! I want a hat with Emolga on it..and the Emolga plushies!!!!

umm nothing really new saw this flyer today thought...WHAAAA!!!!!

My Most Precious Treasure (Yui ver.)

2011-06-17T00:48:00.000-05:00

Like to learn this song

My Most Precious Treasure (Yui ver.)

When we faced each other, we did nothing but fighting
Yet those were good memories, too

You taught me that, so I’m not scared anymore
No matter how fettered I am, I can seize happiness, so-

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go on, even if it’s tough
I’ll definitely take along the dream I had with you
I’m glad to have been with you, not anyone else
But on the morning when I wake up, you’re not there

I felt like we’d be able to play forever
I know I only felt so
I no longer regret that I was born
It’s like after a festival; it’s lonely, but let’s get going shortly

I’ll go everywhere, that’s what I learned here
I’ll show you I’ll fulfill the dream known as happiness
Even if I’m separated from you, no matter how far apart we are
I’ll live in a brand-new morning

Even if I’m alone, I’ll go on, even if I want to die
I can hear your voice, saying, “You mustn’t die”
Even if it’s tough, even if I cry in loneliness
Deep in my heart, I feel warmth

Cycling and flowing, the times change
I can’t recall what happened anymore
But if I try closing my eyes, there’s someone’s laughter
Somehow that’s my most precious treasure now

Batman

2011-06-05T22:16:00.003-05:00

So over the weeks back in to the comic book craze reading all me batman comics watching the cartoons nothing new an exciting there just getting back into the groove of it all so heres some pics and such

pride

2011-05-24T22:29:00.002-05:00

Lyrics

Born into the world, each enjoying his own life, discovering the black box in his head...is this bliss?

The important thing is to surpass your limit line. Shall we go? Take your step, and outdo yourself today!

But what should we do with our days? Trying to live flawlessly is a big no no.

Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

If I try to suppress my heart, which is burning hot about things that are unobtainable or constrained,

how am I different from those adults, whom I have come to despise and will never forgive

for their constant attempt to pin me down blindly without even understanding why?

No matter what I do, it'll probably forever remain a pipe dream that will never come true,

but the fire burning in my heart cannot be doused by anyone.

Even if the black rain falling from the sky drenches me completely and doesn't stop,

I will never allow the fire in my heart to be extinguished. That, is my "pride".

It started pouring, as predicted. A lot more buddies gathered around than I had expected.

While talking about one another's days and futures, we became impassioned and started a fist fight.

Thinking back about how we were also fist-fighting the same way

back when we were only 15, as a means to quell our anxiety and uneasiness,

you laughed and said, "You haven't changed a bit..." So I ended up bursting into laughter as well.

If we don't stubbornly stand our ground like this, even the flow of time will become a scary thing.

The only true opponent whom I should hit is really my prideful self.

But still, I don't want to lose right now. I have "pride" not to lose to myself.

Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

Stop! Observe thoroughly the flow of the world! Ignore everything else, and here we go!

No matter what I do, when I'm alone at night, I become even unable to understand myself.

When you're with me, and we try to understand each other, then I'll be able to become stronger.

I don't care how things turn out, and I don't care if I'll look uncool,

I will desperately try to change my future.

Even If I'm told that my destiny is immutable no matter what I do,

I myself can still change, and I will prove to you that I can change myself.

This is, that's right, "pride", each in its own place...

Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.

I don't want to forget yet, the heat in my chest.

Don't perish yet, the fire in my heart.

I can still keep going, so here I go!

Isnt Emonga Adorable! Perfect

2011-05-03T08:00:00.004-05:00

place holder now for some lyrics

So now my time is up
Your game starts, my heart moving?
Past time has no meaning for us, it's not enough!
Will we make it better or just stand here longer
Say it ”we can't end here till we can get it enough!!”

There's no certain logic but
there are only lies out there
Everytime I find in my mind that there's just what I am
that's stired with confidence and insecurity
I may be Weak, but strong same time

This is my own judgment!! Got nothing to say!!
If I got it , I'd say it immediately!!
"Perfect Sense Dreamer"
That is my name
Well, say it ? well, say it!!
If you had any question,
then I'd hear it later so just
hold on!

Yeah when I'm caught in fire
When I rise up higher
Do you see me out there waiting for the next chance we get
Will we make it, IT'S NOT ENOUGH or just stand here longer
Say it ”we can't end here till we can get it enough!!”

Am I a convinced criminal?
Or an intellectual criminal?
No, no, no
I'm always a stopgap type of guy that has no creativity or
uniqueness with opinion and theory thats laced

This is my own judgment!! Got nothing to say!!
If I got it , I'd say it immediately!!
"Perfect Sense Dreamer"
That is my name
Well, say it ? well, say it!!
You know I've got to be NUMBER ONE!!

So how is it?
Unexpected, wasn't it?
You confused, hesitated
And now you wanna retreat?
Then you're gonna evacuate?
Oh, yeah

"perfect sense Dreamer" that is my dream
I don't care who's gonna bring me down
Coz there're a lot more
walls and deep darkness
in front of my eyes
So I'll break it from now on!!

Perfect Sense Dreamer

When I'm caught in fire
When I rise up higher
Do you see me out there
I can't get enough! Can't get enough!!

My song

2011-05-02T16:48:00.002-05:00

The day that ended while searching for where I could wipe out my frustrations
The sky shown gray and I couldn’t see anything ahead
Those who ignore common sense laugh; What lies will they tell next?
What will be gained from hanging that up proudly?
But I have to keep moving forward
So I’ll keep singing like this

You’re crying for sure; You’re lonely for sure
You’re right; You’re just being human
That’s what the tears I shed say
This is beautiful too; It’s not a lie; Thank you for our true selves

Having dreams you want to come true and dreams you can’t reach
That itself becomes the dream, becomes the hope for people to go on living
There’s a door; I’m waiting there
So I’ll hold out my hand

For you who feels crushed, here’s the strength and confidence for you to be able to fight again and my song
That’s what the tears I shed say
Like this too we met in a dirty and ugly world; Thank you for this miracle

the real challenge is making this sound good when played on guitar

Emon!!!!!!

2011-03-30T00:24:00.001-05:00

Emolgas a flying squirrel Pokemon . Emolga sports a vaguely hood-like patterning of black around its head, with a spiky extension of the pattern above its face. Emolga possesses winglike, yellow-colored flaps connected to its three-fingered arms. Its feet are white-colored and fairly small and its black-colored tail is in a jagged shape.

anyways yea lol random!

Emol?Emon!

2011-03-24T21:34:00.003-05:00

Ant it a stinker =D

anyways not alot thats new been busy you know life..work and POKEMON! well thats really all till later! tomorrow is am important day (friday march 25)

PIIIKACHU! ELEC BALL!!

2011-02-28T21:12:00.002-06:00

BLACK AND WHITE IS JUST 6 DAYS AWAY!!! AND IM PUMPED!!! CANT WAIT TO PLAY IT!!!

ANYWAYS tahts all i got for an update! till then tomorrow is another day!

Complication

2011-01-24T21:20:00.002-06:00

Zuruggu yes creepy pokemon but I find awesome he made number 4 on my top 5 anyways some lyrics!

I look up into the sky and I see the heavens are about to cry
The hands of time thin out as long as I am alive
I swallow my memories in order to keep myself from feeling pain
I spit out my all my sorrows onto this lifeless floor...

I am so afraid; of what tomorrow is...
I worry everyday about my own future...
Deep within my heart I know that
The day after tomorrow will not give me, an answer!

Chorus:
The future is an empty canvas that moves on forward so endlessly...
What should I sketch on it?
Reality begins to stain the canvas with its darkest colors...
What should I sketch on it?
I fight for my own time to shine.

Troubled by the world, I'm a loser, I'm pathetic
Gotta get outta here and run, so hectic
There isn't a single thing for me to do so
I snuck outta there and pulled out a cigarette
Today's events bored me half to death
The world looks at me with worried eyes
I shout out to them; "I ain't crying!"
Damn it's an act; tough only on the outside
I walk alone on this road of fate and
To make up for it I bought an I-POD
Musics off, I ain't listening to this RAP
A heavy heart, sucks its gotta be my BAG
It's supposed to be like the story, a home's a home...
But my life ain't a story so I open the window
The pressure from the darkness is crushing me, shit
So I'm back at the park as luck would have it

I am so afraid; of what tomorrow is...
I worry everyday about my own future...
Deep within my heart I know that
The day after tomorrow will not give me, an answer!

The future is an empty canvas that moves on forward so endlessly...
What should I sketch on it?
Reality begins to stain the canvas with its darkest colors...
What should I sketch on it?
I fight for my own time to shine.

With the limited amount of time that is held within these *breath*
Hands of mine I will sketch my future self....
Hoping that I will soon be haaappy~

The future is an empty canvas that moves on forward so endlessly...
What should I sketch on it?
Reality begins to stain the canvas with its darkest colors...
What should I sketch on it?
I fight for my own time to shine.

The future is an empty canvas that moves on forward so endlessly...
What should I sketch on it?
Reality begins to stain the canvas with its darkest colors...
What should I sketch on it?
I fight for my own time to shine.

Diver

2011-01-17T06:56:00.002-06:00

Alright it's time for some lyrics! isnt that right Kibago! (hahah love this lil guy! best of the 5 new pokemon of the Gen V) anyways these lyrics have been playing in on my ipod since it came out and atm tryin to learn the chords on bass...what? I'm playing bass now! when did this happen? well thats for another post =D

The horizon is drifting away
The sky is too blue to depict tomorrow on
A group of stagnated people struggling to breathe
Since when did I crawl under here?

I’ll spill out my sadness
Wouldn’t I be better off only looking forward?
Well then I guess I can’t take the lead
Even if I turn everything around to be my enemy,
I will still feel a dim light
If I’m going to go that far, then…

I want to breathe, it’s painful here
The night you look up at darkness
A floating diver with decompression sickness
Wanting to confirm that I'm alive
Let’s take one more breath, heading down to the bottom of the ocean

I turn the map over in my head,
The night when I was all alone and frightened by the things I lack
I always thought I was strong,
Always thought I was stronger than anyone else

A lost swan was floating in the starry night sky
It started to rain lullingly
But it seems we can't become so
Just as stars are stars, I’m just me
I wonder how far I can go...

With a heavy anchor on my back
And a picture of prayers as a little extra
It started to rain as if giving me a cue

I want to breathe, it’s painful here
Me, looking up into the darkness, a diver without a way to float
If you want proof that you’re alive
Let’s head down to the bottom of the ocean one more time

I want to try to breathe
If I could just sense a bit of happiness, I would never drown again

Christmas Blog GETTO UPUDATEO!!!!!

2010-12-25T13:03:00.003-06:00

so! gifts are awesome each year money is balling like always! so what did I get?

Pokemon Ranger: Gaurdien Signs
Supernatural Season 5
Simpsons PJ pants
Batman PJ Pants
Bruno Mars Debut Album
Alotta Chocolate

good gett! getting old so less and less gifts
but MONEY IS Always awesome!

Christmas drawing is in the works!

Early New Years Rez

2010-12-21T00:02:00.002-06:00

Alright let's get this started early! these are my Plans for a New..NEW!!! NEW YEARS FUKKEN REVOLUTION!!!

1. Get my ass in gear for an exciting year!
2. move my ass along! keep goin don't look fukken back!
3. finish my Mini Pro-art Comic Book a month early! GOIN TO BE THE FUKKEN SHIT!
4. not worry about girls! just focus on school! if I run into a realtionship its totally goin to be Hitsuzen!
5. live an abnormal life style! make each day as interesting as possabile!
6.TBA

THAT IS ALL FOR NOW FUKKER!

Blisters!!!!

2010-12-06T22:16:00.004-06:00

alright lets do a real update!

so whats new in the lovely world of liu? ....well nothing much and not really just school finally on print and officaly goin to be workin on print! what was my first major project?

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exciting? yes annoying...totally! i spent a total of 15 hours on character designs and now 22 hours on script writing its a pain indeed! but going to be worth it!!! if it gets approved (it should) I will get 5000 units printed! which I say is fucking awesome! this is just a stepping stone to what I want to do in life and hopefully this is that push I been looking for! whats this being used for tho? well its for the carrer symposium for proart the comic is about the basics of production art! so till then hopefully I'll post some designs and concept ideas! so till then all wish me luck! and if ya want a copy let me know! :p

Christmas

2010-12-04T18:18:00.001-06:00

christmas! busy! so image!

Feel quartet

2010-11-22T21:05:00.002-06:00

Random lyrical moment!

Beat to listen, Feel quartet
Got you thinkin',Sing quartet
What do I do? You are just adapting
Things as you like

Usually quietly, sometimes noisily
Lights and shadows are living today, too
I want to tune my confused feelings
And release open stings with loud volume

The tag is endless
It repeats for the convenience of someone
The childfood memories
They are sprinkled on every emotions and sights

And the shapes that exist nowhere else
They are goin to be piled up and strung
like a cherry blossom that you can see once in lifetime

When you are happy, you go out
When you are mad, you wanna kick something,
you mortified, you hatred
It's normal, isn't it?

If they are covered by oblate
They will just be eaten by someone and that's all
Ah,ah, somehow it makes me itchy

Four emotions are coming and going
They change their colour one after another
And make this town happy
We are playing contrast like that

Beat to listen, Feel quartet
Got you thinkin',Sing quartet
What do I do? You are just adapting
Things as you like

random lyricial moment

2010-11-11T17:28:00.001-06:00

What tough heart!
Once I decided that I’d keep up the fight, my road has never stopped unraveling
Carrying a small bit of pride with my fists clenched,
I aim for the goal again step by step, racing towards it with all my might!
Sometimes it’ll be a bad day where nothing goes the way I want it to
But even if the sky blurs through my tears,
I’m sure my smiles will come back tomorrow, so it’s okay!

There’s nothing out there to fear
I’ll keep believing that “I’m strong” and get going!

“With you around, there’s nothing to worry about now”
I felt as if the sky was saying that to me with a laugh
With the sweat and tears I build up, I’m sure I’ll come out dazzling
Even if I end up feeling anxious after it all,
As long as I believe I can do it
These footsteps have taught me to, always, Never Give Up!

“I’m always comparing myself to someone else…”
Even though I know that it’s okay to be me
I put the blame on others, avoiding the issue, and I just can’t forgive that about myself
I run into walls blocking my path and can’t figure things out on my own
But despite the hard times, I had friends who stuck by me and gave me their support
Because they laughed and cried with me
They’re irreplaceable to me, giving me invisible strength and courage, pushing me forward!

There’s nothing out there to fear
Because we’re friends, we’ll go together

“With you around, there’s nothing to worry about now”
I felt as if the sky was saying that to me with a laugh
With the sweat and tears I build up, I’m sure I’ll come out dazzling
Even if I end up feeling anxious after it all,
As long as I believe I can do it
These footsteps have taught me to, always, Never Give Up!

If now is the time to hold out, then don’t wait around; take a stand!
Wrap your heart around your head like a headband, and clench your teeth inside your heart
Once you do that, then surely you’ll take a one step lead, be a single hero
If you justify the situation saying “There’s no helping it” then give that naive self of yours a kick in the rear
Don’t be scared, light a fire underneath your timidity! You’ve gotta move!
Step it up and put an end to this farce, don’t just stand there, but Restart all over again!
Keep On, always with a smile, Zone Here We Go Now!

You’re never alone, don’t ever give up, look up at the sky and raise your fist into the air
“With you around, there’s nothing to worry about now”
I felt as if the sky was saying that to me with a laugh
With the sweat and tears I build up, I’m sure I’ll come out dazzling
Even if I end up feeling anxious after it all,
As long as I believe I can do it
These footsteps have taught me to, always, Never Give Up!

a interesting post

2010-11-06T01:18:00.001-05:00

We meet people and fall in love,
and we part they leave marks to remember them by.
Our lovers sculpt us, they define us,
For better or for worse.

Like a pinball they slam into us and rebound
in a different direction
prapeld by the contact.

And after the parting we might be scared.
The stronger or the more fragile or the needy, or angry, or guilty.
It's never unchanged

Our lovers linger inside us
like ghosts, haunting the corridors and deserted rooms
sometimes whispering, sometimes screaming.
visable...but always there...waiting.

random!

2010-10-31T21:47:00.002-05:00

Closer

2010-10-29T00:26:00.002-05:00

All that is near us
We must know
Could disappear any day
Be careful

The main key to finding happiness
Lies nowhere else but in my soul

You could reminisce; you could recall
The very last time you felt joy
Or maybe you are so blessed to a point
Where you can't remember anything

It's a harmony
A miracle
Being able to breathe and live at all
So here is your one and only chance

Life is an opportunity

All that is near us
We must know
Could disappear any day
Be careful

The main key to finding happiness
Lies nowhere else but in my soul

You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it

And I'll never take it for granted

Let's go

Some people may call a kind deed
An act of mere hypocrisy
But never mind those who have lost faith
You shouldn't give in to what they say

As a matter of fact, let me tell you
Even if it was for a selfish cause
A salvageable hypocrisy
Is superior to murderous honesty

Everybody tells you from time to time
To never give up like a phrase from a movie

They tell you to stand up for yourself
As if was always that easy

Gather a handful of courage in my heart
To go on and survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted

Let's go

halloween

2010-10-09T23:22:00.001-05:00

GrlDeMo

2010-09-20T00:08:00.001-05:00

Change

2010-09-16T22:05:00.001-05:00

a little change! time for some lyrics

You had your wishes but you threw them away
They made you happier for more then one day
But now you’re lost and cannot figure a way
To get outta this lie that comforts you
And you know that I would lie to comfort you

Renew your wishes, now get out of the fray
You'll never change, if you keep running away
A little time, you need to figure a way
'Cause you know it doesn't lie in front of you
And you know it doesn't lie in front of you

(Chorus)
I need a change cause it's all gone wrong for me
Somebody else to lead me now
I need a change cause it's all gone wrong for me
Somebody else to lead me now
I want somebody else to lead me now
I said somebody else to lead me now

(Rap)
Brothers on top chasing all the melodies
Never can stop cause it's a necessity
You like the rhythm of the brothers that make you dance
I think we're changing the sound of sweet romance
Time to party
juu ni honno ude
Everybody wants to get started
Danka dan dan sweet sounds of shamisen
We've got a style when we come on the floor
Wouldn't it be nice if we all got along
Even on a small scale, change is possible
We keep saying these things
Don't even know what they mean
It's like you've never even seen me at the end of the street
Start travelling, communicate, educating, sing me a song
You'll be surprised by how many people want to hear what your saying
Apples are red, which tastes the same as green (whoo)

(Chorus)

I need a change cause it's all gone wrong for me
Somebody else to lead me now
I need a change cause it's all gone wrong for me
Somebody else to lead me now

(Chorus)

update with iphone/ipodtouch images

2010-09-12T22:32:00.003-05:00

there shall be a real post tomorrow just goin to do this before bed!

My summer

2010-09-02T23:12:00.001-05:00

ohh how i spent it..well here's how!

Drawings

2010-08-25T00:30:00.001-05:00

well basicly my will is like wtf at the moment..like..well nothing is really feeling right ...and my work piss's me off and i dont know what to do...maybe a day out will make me..well cant go out been working alot...and tryin to pay off bills and such..yup thats life for me really...nothing exciting

Scott Pilgrim vs the WORLD!!

2010-08-11T00:53:00.004-05:00

So last night I went to an Advanced Screening of "Scott Pilgrim vs The World!"
for those who don't know about the movie so here is the symnop "In Toronto, 23-year-old Scott Pilgrim (Michael Cera) is the bass guitarist for the band Sex Bob-omb and has just met the girl of his dreams, Ramona Flowers (Mary Elizabeth Winstead). Scott learns that he must battle Ramona's seven evil exes, who are coming to kill him, to finally win Ramona's heart. As Scott gets closer to Ramona, his encounters include skateboarders, vegan rock stars, and identical twins. To stay with Ramona, Scott must vanquish all of the seven evil exes before they defeat him"

ok thats the movie heres the quicky way to say it from the books "The series is about 23-year-old Canadian Scott Pilgrim, a slacker, hero, and part-time bassist who is living in Toronto and plays bass guitar in the band "Sex Bob-Omb." He falls in love with American delivery girl Ramona V. Flowers, but must defeat her seven "evil ex-boyfriends" in order to date her."

so the movie was basicly just awesome..ok epic but some parts are skipped or not even mention at all inthe movie ok ok i get it the movie is loosely based on the graphic novels only using the books as a guide and mostly the epic lines from the book in the movie so it was like the books but wasn't...they referenced alot from the book which is awesome ..just awesome better then harry potter by far and such and such also ok

parts that are missed or not mention.. the so called "glow" for example at the end of book one "On the subway home, Scott and Ramona decide to become a couple, on the proviso that Scott agree to defeat her other evil-exes. When Scott asks if Gideon is one of them, Ramona's head glows sharply." yup her head glows..why? i have no fuckin clue still...

ok book two now this is what is mention at the end of the book
"As the fight is taking place, Scott gets a call from Envy Adams, who asks him to open for her band, The Clash at Demonhead that weekend. The conversation implies that they once had a relationship, and after the phone call, Wallace arrives at the apartment to find Scott in a near-coma-like state. Scott and his friends show up to see Envy's band on Friday, only to discover that Knives is now dating Young Neil, Stephen Stills' roommate. The book ends with an epic opening by The Clash at Demonhead, and introduces Ramona's third evil ex-boyfriend, Todd Ingram, who is the bassist." yup was pretty much in the movie but yeah..loved it but instead of wallce finding scott on the floor he was in the kitchen when envy called and said "ahh shit"

ok book three! "Chapter 16 opens with Envy, Todd and Lynette at a restaurant. Todd cheats at being a vegan and orders gelato, then proceeds to make out with Lynette while Envy is in the bathroom. Later, that evening, before opening for Envy's band, Ramona and Envy get into an argument and begin to fight, Ramona armed with a giant mallet. Midway through, Sex Bob-omb appears on stage in costume (Stephen Stills as Johnny Cash, Kim Pine in a gothic lolita dress, and Scott in a second-hand suit). Scott sees Envy about to kill Ramona and Knives, and jumps from the stage to hit her "weak point", the back of her knees. Ramona tells Envy that Todd is cheating on her, and that he performed his Moon crater trick for Ramona first, which is why there are two holes on the moon. Todd and Scott then proceed to have a boss battle, and Scott is aided by the powers of The Boys and Crash (the opening band for the evening). Todd almost wins the battle until the vegan police show up and strip him of his powers for multiple vegan offenses, such as eating gelato. Scott headbutts the powerless Todd, who is reduced to a pile of coins. Afterward, Scott receives an extra life. Finally, Sex Bob-omb gets to play, and Scott spots a strange character (Gideon) from the stage. The volume ends with Envy moving back home." ok that epicness there was not really in the movie only the vegan police and the list of what todd ate

Book four (almost there!)
(note this is all based around the end of each book and ripped from wiki for you lazy buggers!)" After briefly encountering Wallace in an awkward position and being informed that he was fired from his job during the fight, Scott goes to Lisa's house to spend the night. Lisa recalls whether Scott had any feelings for her in high school and if they should have an affair. After waking up from a dream which Roxie had infiltrated in an attempt to kill him, Scott learns that nothing happened between him and Lisa since he had finally managed to say that he loves Ramona. After getting his job back, Scott goes to the Second Cup, which is different from the one Stacey works at since Knives is working there. There, they are spotted by the samurai, revealed to be Knives' father who was not keen on Knives dating a white boy, who proceeds to attack Scott. Scott escapes via another subspace portal and ends up in Ramona's mind, where she is a slave to a shadowy figure. Ramona kicks Scott out of her head, telling him to forget what he saw, but before he can explain his true feelings, he finds Roxie staying over her house and is told to walk it off. As he walks on, Scott sees his dark self and rejects him, rushing back to Ramona to find her being attacked by Mr. Chau. Scott lures him away and gets him to fight against Roxie. When Scott realises he's just been a pussy all this time, he plucks up the courage to confess his love for Ramona, earning the Power of Love sword. Scott uses this to defeat Roxie, Ninja Gaiden-style, who warns him about the twins before dying. Scott then apologises to Mr. Chau, who leaves having earned respect for Scott, before Scott finally moves in with Ramona. After giving Lisa a farewell meal, Ramona finally tells Scott her age."

ohhh yess in book four we meet Lisa Miller..oh yea she wasnt in the movie at all should of mention that shouldnt it hahaha

Book five! shit starts to go down
"Scott rushes back to the apartment. Ramona, now with her hair cut and dyed again, tells Scott that she is a bad person and that she "had a good time." Her head begins to glow brighter and brighter until she disappears. Scott tries to look for her, but instead lets her cat out and locks himself out of her apartment. Over the next few days, Scott bed-hops whilst trying to get Ramona's cat to come back and constantly mistaking people for Gideon. Kim moves back home to the north, accepting Scott's apology for his behaviour. After moving into a new apartment, Scott reads a note Ramona left behind addressed to Gideon, telling him she wouldn't come back to him. Whilst Scott wonders what this means, he receives a call from Gideon, asking when it would be convenient to die." OHHHH!!! WASNT EVEN IN THE MOVIE AT ALL!!!

ok ending the epic of all..ahhh lets copy and paste "Scott arrives at the Chaos Theatre, where Envy is making her solo debut. As Envy starts her performance, Scott is attacked by Gideon, who is surprised to hear that Ramona isn't with him. When Scott refuses to join the League of Evil Exes, Gideon steals his Power of Love sword and stabs him with it, killing him. Scott finds himself in a desert where he finally sees Ramona again, who apologises for her leaving. Scott kisses her only to be interrupted by Ramona's reminder that he is dead. However, Scott then returns to life thanks to the extra life he obtained from Todd Ingram, and Ramona bursts out of his chest to arrive and confront Gideon. Gideon reveals several cryogenic capsules filled with former girlfriends, wanting Ramona to join them. He then fires a blast which gives everyone 'the glow', causing them to become irritated whilst Gideon fights them. Gideon explains that he formed the league following a drunken post on Craigslist, after his breakup with Ramona, who points out he only started taking interest in her after they broke up.

Ramona tries to use the glow to escape into subspace, but is stabbed by Gideon, who explains the glow is an emotional weapon which seals people inside their own heads with their issues. After learning from Ramona that Gideon literally had a way of getting inside her head, Scott jumps into Ramona's subspace bag and arrives in her head, where he confronts Gideon and gives him the glow. Scott is cornered by Gideon, but his actions encourage Ramona to unite the parts of her that don't belong to Gideon to confront him. Gideon tries to attack Scott but Ramona blocks it with her bag, returning them to the real world and allowing Ramona to retrieve the Power of Love sword, healing her wounds. When Scott sees Gideon shrug Envy off, he comes to understand him and earns the Power of Understanding sword. As they fight, Gideon reveals he had been watching the two via the subspace highway in Scott's head, spicing up some of his memories in the process. Whilst Gideon tries to suggest that Scott and Ramona are their own worst enemies, they agree that Gideon is much worse and finish him, causing him to explode into $7,777,777 in coins.

Scott receives closure from Envy and Gideon's former girlfriends are unfrozen. Ramona reveals she had just been on a wilderness sabbatical at her dad's cabin, with not much luck, and later reaffirms her relationship with Scott, deciding to give it another shot. In the closing pages, Stephen reveals he is now in a gay relationship with Joseph, Scott and Kim start a new band performing awful covers, and Scott sees Knives off to college. After this, Scott meets up with Ramona, who decide to try again and walk into subspace together."

WHAT!! THEY NEVER MENTION THAT STEPHEN IS GAY!!! at all! that bugged me,..but yeahh
over all long post great movie i will explain more on the next post!

epic

2010-08-09T02:09:00.003-05:00

cant wait to see scott pilgrim tomorrow..well later today! ..goin to be awesome! will post a review!!

wallpapers?

2010-07-18T15:08:00.002-05:00

why i post these..i dunno nothing better to do with a post..and my ipod touch needs some new wallpapers..anyways!! I will give you an update about where I am in the world starting tomorrow!!! ja!

Lets try this agian

2010-07-02T02:42:00.001-05:00

Ok lets try this one more time..DisLife
dis meaning disfunction and life as in life and that is mine!

Hologram

2010-06-21T22:56:00.003-05:00

here i have two diffrent lyrics..ok three one tv and two full!

TV sized
Draw me with a picture of a higher place I know
When the color fades to white again is where I'll go

Draw me with a picture of a higher place I know
When the color fades to white again is where I'll go

Grey-slated heather
The sky's got my back
Might be lost but I'm moving on
Whatever the weather
Dreams dot the map, when you see them I'll be gone
Red-light shrouds
Change everyday, but I'm sure it won't be long
I know step by step I'll fly far beyond the highest clouds

Always be strong
Never be wrong
That was all a front for my heart
Empty as a well
Finally the raindrops fell
Revived the dream and showed me where to start

Outta sight like rays of light and I am on my way
Through the bluest moon and the darkest river
I'll go through it all and never fall astray
Burn the prize into my eyes and let the image play
For no matter where I am, forget the 'yes or no'
When the color fades to white again I'll seize the day

Full Lyrics 2
Purity is calling me to fresh untainted air
And I'm goin' to the new world that is waiting there

Lost like a child
I searched aimlessly
With the sky overhead like a graveyard
Although my dreams are changing
Like ink on a map that is caught in the pouring rain
Someday, I hope
Although I am small and my strides barely make any impact,
I can go beyond those clouds in the sky
To a place that's alive

In a bright light is a new path
That is calling softly to me
I can break on through to the other side of this
Though I won't forget what's left behind

Underneath this slate-gray sky
I see a spark of blue
And no matter where I turn out to be
I will still search for my new destiny
Although it is still far from me, beyond my gray despair
I will someday reach the new world that is waiting there

Unknowingly embedded, like a thought from a dream, in a sticker of stark black-and-white
Is something precious that we chose to hide out of fear of our rainbow world
Light from the stars up above, the colors of the flowers that bloom out of love
A treasure chest from a false vision that we all are sharing
Like a Hologram

Scenes come to life
Showing a day
Of a wandering misfit like me
Fly around my head, adding to the lonliness
And that old frustration deep inside

The road is leading straight ahead beneath my aching feet
To a place where I can find a new strength
Somewhere I'll cure this maddening fatigue
Purity is calling me to fresh untainted air
And I'm goin' to the new world that is waiting there

There is now a rainbow waiting
Pulsing with a light that calls to me
As it shivers in the cold
In the shadow of the clouds
Woah, I will find tomorrow in the colors that wait

Now a beam of dappled light is shining on my path
With the rainclouds parting for the sun, showing a world that I've been searching for
Now the sky's a gradient of yellow, red, and blue
And I've finally found a world where everything is new
And I will surely find the future that is waiting here

ROmaji-English translation

Invited by a pure white scenery now,
Ill go to a world that I still havent seen

As a lost child, I journeyed
Under the slate-gray sky.
Many dreams blotted through the map that changes daily.

Someday,
Even with my strides as I am tiny -
I wonder if I can get to the other side of those clouds.

The direct light intersects itself,
And without even announcing my destination,
I pierce through everywhere.
The faint afterimage is burnt into my eyes-
Under this sky,
No matter where I am,
I should be able to reach
The world that I still havent seen.

Unknowingly embedded in a black and white sticker -
What is important is that we had hidden.
Light from the stars from the beautiful flowers from stones of the treasure
dream of the noise and the hologram.

Scenes depicting one day against the odd man out
fly like a bubble through the loneliness and frustration.

The road is straight,
and would be stronger than now.
Now been invited to a pure white scenery,
I’ll go to a world that I still haven’t seen.

The light color of the rainbow in the sky is where
a distant voice calls me, shivering every time in the shadow of tomorrow.

The straight, scattered light
pours all at a time in the afternoon after the rain.
Now mix the infinite gradations of
this all under the sky.
We will make sure we will arrive in this world.

Never Let This Go...

2010-06-14T22:08:00.005-05:00

As I look into your eyes and see you standing there
Tell me something
You're never gonna let this go

Step into your heart but you don't take it
Please don't leave it
And you're never gonna let this go

All I know
Is that you want to break it
I just want to say
Is that your feeling?
You know what you are?

Tell me why
Did you turn your back right to me
You drive me crazy!!

We just carry on our relation
that we can't keep any more
But we have to make it for us
'cuz I'm never gonna make it
If I see your mind
without the wall of emotion that I tore
I could get everything back
It's back to me just like that!

As I look into your face and see you smiling there
Show me anything
You're never gonna let this go

Maybe I was messed
You think maybe I was wrong
No way to change it
But you're never gonna let this go

You know what you are?
All I know
Is that you want to break it
I just want to say
Is that your feeling?
Tell me why
Did you turn your back right to me
You drive me crazy!!

We just carry on our relation
that we can't keep any more
But we have to make it for us
'cuz I'm never gonna make it
If I see your mind
without the wall of emotion that I tore
I could get everything back
It's back to me just like that!

Is that you don't want to break it
All I know
Please tell me why
Did you turn your back right to me
You drive me crazy

We just carry on our relation
that we can't keep any more
But we have to make it for us
'cuz I'm never gonna make it
If I see your mind
without the wall of emotion that I tore
I could get everything back
This time, we will let this go!!

Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer

2010-04-23T00:58:00.002-05:00

well lately its just been wake up go to school come home or go to work nothing new...havent been able to catch anything good in Pokemon Gold but over all really just live each day by day and nothing new...im really tired and such but goin to watch some anime and off to bed

doujin wise i got bored today and started up on a 18 page one shot which will be most likely a few pages back to back anyways i leave you with these lyrics and night!

So now my time is up
Your game starts, my heart moving?
Past time has no meaning for us, it's not enough!
Will we make it better or just stand here longer
Say it ”we can't end here till we can get it enough!!”

There's no certain logic but
only bullshit out there
Everytime I find in my mind that there's just what I am
that's stired with confidence and insecurity
Weak, but strong same time

This is my own judgment!! Got nothing to say!!
If I got, I'd say it immediately!!
"Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer"
is my name
Well, say it ? well, say it!!
If you had any question,
then I'd hear it later so just
hold on now!

Yeah when I'm caught in fire
When I rise up higher
Do you see me out there waiting for the next chance we get
Will we make it, IT'S NOT ENOUGH or just stand here longer
Say it ”we can't end here till we can get it enough!!”

Am I a convinced criminal?
Or an intellectual criminal?
No, no, no
I'm always a stopgap type of guy that has no creativity or
uniqueness with which opinion and theory are laced

This is my own judgment!! Got nothing to say!!
If I got, I'd say it immediately!!
"Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer"
is my name
Well, say it ? well, say it!!
You know I've got to be NUMBER ONE!!

So how is it?
Unexpected, wasn't it?
You must be confused, hesitated
And now you wanna retreat?
Then you're gonna evacuate?
Oh,yeah

This is my "Kanzen kankaku Dreamer-like" dream
I don't care who's gonna bring me down
Coz there're a lot more
big walls and deep darkness
in front of my eyes
So I'll break it from now on!!

Kanzen Kankaku Dreamer

When I'm caught in fire
When I rise up higher
Do you see me out there
I can't get enough! Can't get enough!!

to be fair

2010-04-18T07:27:00.002-05:00

to be fair...i still question myself..i still question evrything i do everything i have done...was it worth it? what would happen if this happend? what would..>? every question ends with another another...what has everythign I done till now...mean? what do i matter in this world? do i really understand whats really givin to me? do i take things for granted? what happend if i never fell in love or what happend if i never met this person what what what what what? is all that comes up...maybe its just me..since i cant sleep at 730 in the damn morning

nande?

2010-04-11T22:00:00.002-05:00

Just now my way, The fated moment now at my pace

Good-Good Smile

2010-03-31T21:18:00.003-05:00

..well i basicly started Heart Gold and Using the alias "Gold" for this game soo woop! and atm training Pichu-Totodile-Pachirisu and Starly! woo!!! IKEA!!!!!! PICHU!!!! VOLT TACKLE!!!!!

and yea..and it seems one of my friends doesnt want me to be a hermit so..kind have to go out this weekend...hmm guess cant be a hermit...ahh well THAT ENDS WELL..i think

Back again with the netbook

2010-03-29T14:09:00.003-05:00

ohh Soel...stop dying on me...you damn old HP!...oh well..Im here using Larg..this lil guy seen better days Soel is back in the shop again...really really annoying I have to tell ya...but what can you do....well my sunday..what did i do? went out to see Hot Tub TIme Machine with some people...well worth it lol good laughs and cheap times in the 80's is all i gotta say

and well thats really all..I have caught them all so..now Im done with Soul Silver...Now Have to play Heart GOld...oh fun! ...and yea...nothing new....oh.! back to thr grind of workin on a Doujin...woop woop!

Chaaa-Pika-Pika-Chu!..Chaaaaaa~

2010-03-23T23:21:00.002-05:00

AND YELLOW FOREST IS NOW MINE IN MY POKEWALKER!!!!

Yellow Forest (Japanese: きいろのもり Yellow Forest) is an area in Pokémon HeartGold and SoulSilver. It was first announced on Pokémon Sunday, exactly forty days before the games' release in Japan.

It can be accessed on the Pokéwalker after the player activates a Wi-Fi event. The only Pokémon that reside in Yellow Forest are Pikachu, some of which are said to know the move Fly. Pikachu captured in the forest can also know moves such as Volt Tackle, Flail, and even Surf.

and yet.. I havent ran into one that knows any of those moves...but what matters is that..ITS FUUUUN!!! XD soo Come on Pichu!! help me out and catch me a Flying PIkachu and a Surfing pika!! come on!!!

damn it!!!

Kaze

2010-03-22T23:15:00.003-05:00

Well now its been...about a week and ahalf now..and still havent caught them all!!...but...what ever...I will just try to build a strong team...to kill time..

on another note..school..well a new school setting should be exciting but for now...GOTTA CATCH EM GOTTA CATCH EM ALL!!

so I leave with this image and Hopeing that I become a Pokemon master :p

now thats an awesome Pic!

Nicknames

2010-03-20T00:48:00.002-05:00

So when i think about it...I have a few nicknames Pong is the most recent one...and I am Also known as Liu and Negi but mostly Negi and Pong only the people i meet at the clubs and Bar call me liu

anyways when I look at the pokemon I trained in this gamethey have amazing names I have givin them lets start it off!

Pikachu-Pika
Typholsion-Explotaro
Pidgeot-Pidgtaro
Swampert-Zuzu
Snorlax-Lax
Venusaur-Saur
Marril- Martaro
Dragonite-Drataro

oh yea im cool like that!

anyways back to trainin Pika...he shall he awesome!!!

BEAT!!!

2010-03-19T01:12:00.001-05:00

TOTALLY KILLED RED!! take that MOTHER FUCKER MY PIKACHU IS BETTER THEN YOURS!!..even tho your lapras...did OTK it.....what you expect its a pikachu its one of the many weaker pokemon!!! ...anyways now goin to catch them all!!!

Catch em gotta catch em all

2010-03-18T19:51:00.001-05:00

Soo here I am..on day 4 of playing pokemon.....CURSE YOU GAME!!! totally forgot to save...i battled misty 4 times already...---_---....fuck oh well almost beat the kanto region! and then goin to kick your ass RED!!!

POKEMON!

2010-03-16T00:34:00.001-05:00

well picked up the new games..brb in a while hahaha trainin trainin

hit

2010-03-12T01:26:00.001-06:00

i have this feeling I ether hit a low in my life or Im just not that motivated...anymore..my doujin is slowly becoming a dream I been trying to push for all these years...but will it get me anywhere? will it brighten up my path to where my future is ...or add another stepping stone onthe right path...I really just don't know..I want to get this DOujin goin to the right direction..sO i started to redraw some pages..to make it and or give it more depth and head on Battles..I really just dont know..maybe if i play the new pokemon game will insiper me to do better in it and such..anyways thats really all

roy who the fuck is roy!

2010-03-10T00:13:00.000-06:00

ohh yea totallybored so i drew this...anyways thats all!

covers done!

2010-03-04T23:36:00.001-06:00

hours later...and i mean..hours.....what matters is that i finished it! now to tone the other 40 pages...

This moment is the greatest!!

2010-03-04T14:23:00.001-06:00

Well this demo is done! But i will for sure be adding more tones to it and of course fixin the text but this shall do for now tho! enjoy! oh currently workin on a cover the inking is almost done then gotta scan and colour!

MEGA DOUJIN UPDATE!!!!!

2010-02-28T18:22:00.003-06:00

Well here are the first Five pages I have up to 7 done but I have 2 more pages to go till my demo is done! so enjoy this sneek!!!

We've got a good combination!
Perfect communication!
Always high tension!
WOW WO shalala... so there's no need to worry!

We've got a good vibration!
Towards tomorrow, congratulations!
Always a revolution!
I'm sure at the end we'll all be Pokémon Masters!!

oh yea got that damn song stuck in my head damn saiko everyday!

2010-02-25T16:03:00.001-06:00

No matter how time goes, the fate goes, I know there's only one thing for sure.

and I'm pretty sure Im not sure of that one thing...well Im pretty unsure of alot of things but hey who knows right? that's how life is i guess

April 6

2010-02-25T00:36:00.002-06:00

So I got accepted into winnipeg tech! exciting desho?
im psyched! goin to be awesome!!! new school and a good move on life!...i guess you can says wow goin to be hell tho 10 months of nothing but drawing and comp work...what the hell am i sayin hell goin to be EPIC!!! the first four months goin to be in this order i think
Type-Design, Drawing, Advanced Compostion from april-june and since i get summer break(kinda odd) so from september its Image assembly and it branches off into two differnt parts Design or Print I can take so i dunno what I wanna take form there since its a ten month course and nine lessons and a practicum so each month is goin to be something new and exciting!

well thats really all for now

yo's!

2010-02-20T04:00:00.003-06:00

well i finally got to play mario for the wii and you know what i kinda like it...well takin in the fact i only paid 30 bucks for it and well the controls are ok...but guess once i get used to it and i get the money to buy some more wiimotes then i can totally play with more ppl!!!

uhh soo doujin wise,,,pokemon is haitus and mt current one...well i have writers block what you wanna fight about it?...kick your ass...

so ya thats really all for now...till later alls!! im goin to go back to watching a random episode of Hitman Reborn

Fuwa Fuwa TIme

2010-02-17T00:52:00.002-06:00

..soo working on this new Concept for a story...wow...ummm can you say really ? Ecchi? your goin to aim for that...! yes..i am well trying...its hard to make it funny...and yet I still can't draw breasts...-_-,..oh well wish me luck on this story hahah its diffrent and not dark...strange eh?

Fuda Pen Fu Fu

2010-02-15T23:42:00.002-06:00

well theres nothing really new...everything i been drawing is at a standstill I guess you can say...but thats ok...hmmm my main laptop is till in the sho...poor soel....never saw it comming...*sniffle*

well Im currntly using the netbook Larg..tuff it up lil up tuff it out!

anyways thats really all really..soo ya..hey look my sketch book!

Happy Chinese New Years! Year of the Tigar!!! Gung Ha Fat Choy!!! 農曆新年!??!

2010-02-14T00:30:00.001-06:00

yup! new years ya'll!!! woo!!! means Lucky Redz Pouches!! so screw you Valentines day! I have my New Years!!! only 1 more year to go till it's my year! YEAR OF THE MOTHA FUCKIN DRAGON!!! soo ya thats really all I got plus working on a new Name and Characters..

allo!

2010-02-12T02:04:00.002-06:00

Well Since I stoped writing my PkM Doujin I have started that other one well just the names really So I even added a Pet Good Ol SOup the Turtle hahaha oh...how i missed that lil guy
hmmm so ya not much new...My main laptop Soel is in the shop again..poor thing,..but its ok if its truely messed Im getting me my damn Mac BooK!

oh! uhhh ya thats really it :P will post more about school and such tomorrow!

REWRITE IT!

2010-02-09T23:55:00.002-06:00

So The whole death Doujin idea is still in the works But i want to try my hands on some romantic comedy and such something in the love hina, aoi house kinda thing

something different So I am trying the Idea of roommates male and female oh no im not doing that they are a couple bullshit

My story idea mostly goes like this

Colsen Wong is your average Asian 23 and living with Ruby(tempname) she's 21 both living together and it's your everyday life style with stupied crap happening and such...

thats my some what outline im going with until i can think of a proper storyline

anyways th epokemon doujin is comming along 28 pages! are done

so I leave you with that and im goin back to watch the 3rd advance generation Pokemon Movie
Lucario!!!

DIGI-CODE!....SCAN!

2010-02-08T01:58:00.000-06:00

..wow thats and old quote from 7 years ago.. i think...anyways! 9 pages have been scaned and uploaded into manga creator...but i will tone and script it laters...since well it is 2 in the morning! just keepin ya all posted!

ink ink ink inking!

2010-02-07T15:25:00.001-06:00

So I Finished drawing 27 pages only 13 pages left but I have currently stoped drawing and Inking the first 9 pages...due to the first chapter being 9 pages..so! I am making it a Demo to show off to people that and leave one at little star just to help get some hype going so! with that said I am goin to get back to inking so more laters! maybe some Lineart scans just for the so lil on my blog i guess you can say!

that and a lil tired from last night crazy bar night adventre...crazy girls hahaha...and thats all im goin to say >.>

its almost that horrable time of year again

2010-02-03T22:53:00.002-06:00

keep forgottin its almost that day whats it called? oh right Valintines day..oh wait..I'm single..but THATS OK! cause CHinese new Years falls on the eact same say! oh ya to new years! always on a fuckin differnt day...*sigh*...I remeber the last girl i dated..wow did she hate that day..found it pointless hey she at least had a point it is and i thank her for that so what am i goin to be doing again this year? well since my doujin has now reached 11 pages of being done so here i am in my room...drawing..d.rawing.... oh! right about what i wanna do in the future

Im dropping outta U of W..ok not really dropping I'm goin to finish it up then transfer over but to what school? Im goin to head down to Winnipeg Technical and take up the Prodution Art course

what do i do in it? well this is what "The Production Art program offers students exposure to all aspects of the print media industry, from concept and computer art, to a completed printed product"

woo!! exciting! only because I get to do some a four-week Work Practicum Im actully pretty pumped for this! Can't wait to do this Im aimin for the ten month course so that means 10 months of no partying or going out just goin to hermit it for the year and then wooo!! work in something exciting!

but I am still searching for a world where I belong too wait I will explain this part in song haha

Hologram-Fan-Edit

Purity is calling me to fresh untainted air
And I'm goin' to the new world that is waiting there

Lost like a child
I searched aimlessly
With the sky overhead like a graveyard
Although my dreams are changing
Like ink on a map that is caught in the pouring rain
Someday, I hope
Although I am small and my strides barely make any impact,
I can go beyond those clouds in the sky
To a place that's alive

In a bright light is a new path
That is calling softly to me
I can break on through to the other side of this
Though I won't forget what's left behind

Underneath this slate-gray sky
I see a spark of blue
And no matter where I turn out to be
I will still search for my new destiny
Although it is still far from me, beyond my gray despair
I will someday reach the new world that is waiting there

Unknowingly embedded, like a thought from a dream, in a sticker of stark black-and-white
Is something precious that we chose to hide out of fear of our rainbow world
Light from the stars up above, the colors of the flowers that bloom out of love
A treasure chest from a false vision that we all are sharing
Like a Hologram

Scenes come to life
Showing a day
Of a wandering misfit like me
Fly around my head, adding to the lonliness
And that old frustration deep inside

The road is leading straight ahead beneath my aching feet
To a place where I can find a new strength
Somewhere I'll cure this maddening fatigue
Purity is calling me to fresh untainted air
And I'm goin' to the new world that is waiting there

There is now a rainbow waiting
Pulsing with a light that calls to me
As it shivers in the cold
In the shadow of the clouds
Woah, I will find tomorrow in the colors that wait

Now a beam of dappled light is shining on my path
With the rainclouds parting for the sun, showing a world that I've been searching for
Now the sky's a gradient of yellow, red, and blue
And I've finally found a world where everything is new
And I will surely find the future that is waiting here

so ya that;s really it...year of the tigar! woop woop! gonna have to like...get started on a drawing actully..

Type-Wild

2010-02-03T00:00:00.004-06:00

Scenes come to life
Showing a day
Of a wandering misfit like me
Fly around my head, adding to the lonliness
And that old frustration deep inside

So I'm on page seven I will be done 8 pages within a few hours but I thought I take a break from drawing rough drafts to i Guess you can main drafts wow i add alotta detail to this...but i still have to ink all of these pages..such fun don't cha think? oh whats up with that saying? hahaha thought be something outta nowhere...ummm not alot new really..really hate my job..but who doesnt right?

ahhh how i wish to change my lifestyle... *sigh*..well I will just edge some hints on what I wanna do...but thats till later ^0^ ..

oh! i really want to get back in to playing magic the gathering..hell the new cards look fucking awesome! Jace is still my favorate Planeswalker..bad ass mother fucker!

and heres an awesome iphone wallpaper..which is what i do

oh and also a bunny Im goin to get,...isn't it adorable! its from the entrail series isn't cute how its guts are hanging out and it has bloodshot eyes...awesome! lol

THE DAYBREAK　HAS COME.

2010-02-02T01:01:00.002-06:00

well now that I am free of everything for a bit I have now started the main pages for my Doujin I am currently on Page three of my good drafts...inking will be done after all 40 pages are done..so far the story is good lil rushed at the end but hey im only limited to 40 pages but ya hahaha

uhhh nothing much new really just work work work when ya think about it....been thinking about alot...mostly school releted not sure what I wanna do after this year..(well that;s a lie I planed something awesome! ) but thats for another time catch ya later!

wow what a three days haha

2010-01-29T00:16:00.003-06:00

so Now I can see the movie! oh what Im talking about so I picked up "The Lovely Bones" Tuesday and wasn't able to put it down So instead of writing my paper I read that book non-stop woo! now its thursday and I'm done it..I really enjoyed it...now to watch the movie...

oh anyways! besides that book My Doujin Draft is almost done just about 9-10 pages left then i will be starting my Main Draft pages! uhh what else to talk about...oh! well nothing really so ya later all!

just postin this here for my iphone hahaha GIZUMI PICHU!

well

2010-01-25T01:58:00.000-06:00

Pokemon Get!

theres nothing really new really...well not alot new just...yea nothing new...just lettin you all know IM ALIVE!

oh my doujin works almost done! only 14 pages to go! on my draft then its time to get down and dirty with the good draft!

god

2010-01-20T00:20:00.000-06:00

well got my netbook up and running...poor lil larg...yes i named my netbook! wanna fight! anyways this poor lil guy is most lkley goin to be used for storage but who knows....who knows... ummm so what else is new what else is new..OH! DOUJIN! uhhh got most of my story done only got like 3 pokemon broken down haha on page 18 of this Name its all about you glaceon! then movin it back down to Johto! fun fun! hahahah so lets see for pokemon for Kouta his Team is baiscly
Pikachu*
Glaceon*
Typhosion
Staraptor
Nidoking
Mismaguis

wow only got two pokemon down as ya can tell by the stars are the ones who got there story and evolutions...done...crap 4 to go..guess i will work on that and i gotta factor in the god damn stones...damn it..oh well just gotta finish up the glaceon ark then onto Nidokings and mismagius! FUN FUN!~

Death is what brings humans closer to an understanding

2010-01-17T22:40:00.002-06:00

well theres nothing really new with me..just doujin block? well not really just stoped at the moment to write me paper! ...that's uhhh going along ok i guess not really much I wanna use but oh well theres really no real up-date soo till later

So

2010-01-13T00:09:00.002-06:00

So Doujin work...Im on Page 10 well since im doing research for a pokemon doujin thought i look into the huge mass of the world of that is pokemon
....holy hell!! is all i gotta say the creator is one smart ass from Bulba
The design of six of the major Pokémon regions - Kanto, Johto, Hoenn, Orre, Sinnoh, and Almia are strikingly similar in geography and demographics to regions in the real world, specifically those of Japan.

so what there sayin is the pokemon world is all set in japan so that means it can expain every more!! wow...and well check this out

http://bulbapedia.bulbagarden.net/wiki/Pok..._the_real_world

wow if i knew i would of totally checked out and goneto Shimoda City http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shimoda,_Shizuoka

and said HEY IM IN PALLET TOWN!!! lol now heres my pikachu damnit! or go to Hamatsu City and say HEY IM IN NEW BARK TOWN NOW!! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hamamatsu,_Shizuoka

baicly it really back to the grind thought i share some random research

Darkness

2010-01-11T01:47:00.000-06:00

Have you ever truly realized the existence of your own shadow? Your shadow in which always follows you...Because you take it for granted, you may not know... the true meaning of your shadow. Because it is too close to you, you may forget..the darkness of your other self.

and so it's been 11 days after the new years..what have I done? nothing...and for the record that is the opening statement in my story I have to write for my class...such fun writing about shadows no sorry the creation of shadows. so let the fun begin!

so it's almost 2 in the morning by lookin at my clock and well not really tired but oh well...what can you really do so with that said i let you all be's and I shall get back to my doujin work and guess you can say studies

CLAMP no Kiseki

2010-01-07T22:20:00.002-06:00

yup got em all!!! just the only problem is where to put them all...hmmm(will post more laterz

So I been

2010-01-05T18:58:00.003-06:00

Well Soo Doujin news I been working on a few names...and again I will say this : "The Name is the japanese word a simple draft of a chapter, meant to map out the paneling compostion, dialogue and backgrounds."

so I am working on two current Names one from way way way back "dIsLiFe" yes thats how it's goin to be spelt the "dis" in "life" went from This LIfe to Dislife to dIsLiFe to make it look interesting the dis can be mean many things.....oh! about the story the story is about a reaper(duh) who tells the story about his job heres a part of it

dIsLiFe=
"Death is everywhere, in the shadows, on the plane, or even behind you at this very moment, but really death happens all the time and just happens....your most likley wondering why it happens? have you ever wonder why people scream for help? or when they bag for there life? or even who they are talking too...welll! for that reason when one reaches death we the reaper appear before those who are dying and suffering"

oh for my second name I am working on

I believe Im goin to call it PoKeMoN! Kouta's story!

Its about a boy named Kouta and his Pokemon where he retells the story about his move from Kanto to Johto and meeting up with an old friend/rival from five years before Kouta moved to Johto to start a anew with his partner Negi(Pikachu) and Glacia(Glaceon) his original starting pokemon from Kanto he devoleps a team and freindship with his pokemon starting with his Cyndaquil which he got in Johto then wondered around to Sinnoh to catch some more interesting pokemon over the five years Kouta earned all 8 badges in Johto and got a e-mail from "drake" his rival to meet him at mt.silver to see who vs the legendary trainer Red in this story who knows who will be the winner

woo and I can't wait to finish all of this up the pkm story is a joint project with The MOA's admin Matsuro one of my friends so this is goin to be an awesome story! so laterz all

Happy New Years 2010

2010-01-02T01:23:00.004-06:00

Hmmm 2010 ...2010..wow I really really need to get my life together...well heres what I wanna do! I will finish up this year at U of W ...come on i been at U of W for three years and what has it gotten me? well not much..but well not alot I can say but hey! what can be really said ..but what i still want to do is produce at least one doujinshi and be alot happier...ether way you look at it Im still depressed and or moody no matter way you look at it...hell Im even growin out my hair for the winter but what ever I started this New DOujin project over with the the Admin over the MOA Blog so heres hoping! anyways here is a new years pic and till then! will be posting more over 2010! oh and over to Blogger Tifflee hope ya feel better

(oh and the joint doujin is goin to be a pokemon one..and this is the Trainer! ha! SPOILER! :D)

I got those lovesick blues

2009-12-28T19:52:00.000-06:00

Just around the corner is the new year wow another year has come and gone and well what have i learned over this year...wells alot! really but I will not go into details really but mostly from last years Resolutions I accomplised majourity of em didn't really date alot or even or gone out on any but that really doesn't really matter I met alotta fun people to go out with on those saturday nights so basicly that was fun...hmmm alotta money spent tho..but what ever

so for carrer job wise ha ...wal-mart fun stuff...well not really but fuck it's a job so it will have to do for now the only awesome thing about it is that I can grow out my hair for the winter so..wooo!

over all for my life-style 2010 is goin to be one interesting year there is alot I want to do I want to travel at least once every 3-4 months so by march I wanna to at least hop on a plane and fly to quebec or go to calgary or even edmonton haven't gone there in a long time and by the summer New York or Japan ether or be fun...wow single life is fun but is lonely...but hey all in how you make it really...

but theres alot to do in the new year and yes my blog posts are always random and well what can you do..so let's make a Negi' 2010 new years resolution list!

1-Finish/Start up Doujinshi (many stories have been started just need to be finished)
2-Have fun with Friends as much as I can
3-Meet a nice girl....or wild girl? ahaha who knows
4-finish up this term of uni
5-just do what I can to make my life exciting!
6-get a tattoo-haha!
7-pick up bass guitar and guitar again....
8-not seal fate it self and live life with that fact that a simple encounter can start a change

do do do do! so that's all for my random rants!

Joy

2009-12-27T19:20:00.000-06:00

Well using my Cousins new pc for this post...odd...makes me want a new PC..wait now..not PC... I WANT TO GET A MAC BOOK! yea...be alot better then this PC..MWHAHAHAHAHAHA

anyways whats new to talk or mention! oh! boxing day what did I buy
well heres the list
Alvin the Chipmunk Plush
Ghostbusters T-shirt
The Office 16 month Calender
Ghostbusters minimates toy
Blackwing fane the steel chain card
25 dollar itunes card
fall out boys greatest hits
dvds
Alvin and the chipmunks movie
Gran Tarino
Office Space

over all pretty good will talk about my christmas gifts laterz

Merry Christmas!

2009-12-25T15:42:00.003-06:00

And thats my Christmas Drawing will updatet his laterz

Happy Holidays!

2009-12-22T22:48:00.002-06:00

Well this will be my second Christmas Single? why do I bring it up? well I dunno just been a Fun and Interesting Year and Glade my Drawings Have improved I'm still wanting to be a Teacher but that hope is slowly passing by me and I'm really wanting to get on the whole artist thing like get my own Manga going or at least improve my work ...by i dunno ALOT! that and be great but I still don't think Graphic Design is where I wanna head But I dunno we Shall see 2010 is a new year comming up so here's hoping!

oh and Merry Christmas! and Happy Holidays!! HERES MY HOLIDAY DRAWING!

Christmas Blues

2009-12-14T21:01:00.002-06:00

Oh Christmas

Artist vs Artist

2009-12-10T01:09:00.000-06:00

what happens when all you do is study...you start talking to yourself lol

and hours later

2009-12-08T19:35:00.003-06:00

and soo all that remains is knowledge for an exam tomorrow night...just gotta go over the minor details but i get the gist of it all so! wish me luck and yes i will one day own a sweater like that one...one day...when i get time to make one ah-ha!

what can i do?>

2009-12-07T00:11:00.001-06:00

so what to talk about eh?

all i been talkin about is schooll..school and more school oh and work..work oh hell fucking sucks and thats really all theres nothing really new but..nothing really new..but christmas...ohchristmas... oh arn't you a fuck you

well thats really all so back to studying

and yet when you look at your own shadow all you see is how empty it really is...

2009-12-06T01:31:00.002-06:00

hmm that sounds like an interesting title let me finish it

And yet when you look at your own shadow....you see how empty and dark it looks...its like a reflection of what never was..you slowly see that all the hope you once had...the dreams you once wanted to prosue all just nothing...now you moved on trying to find the light but yet you can't you keep running from what scares you...from what you know will hurt you ...you just wont accept it.

ANYWAYS!!! the world is a harsh place no matter how hard you try to ignore it but hell what can you do right?

school at the moment for me is..eh? studying everyday going over my notes re-writing em to be more exact I gone through all my cds already kinda sad...but eh what can ya do right? hmm exams on wedensday so i have 3 days left to go over everything! which is aboriginal relgieon,Hinduism,Buddism in india, Buddism in china ,Confucianism and all of japans relgeion not that hard but meh? I even have all of wedensday to study too but yea...thats all i gotta back TO THE BOOKS!

Hikari

2009-11-27T20:09:00.004-06:00

"No matter where I go I don't know where I'm heading"

Well Exam season! fun fun-desu? <.<>

theres not much to talk about to to mention just same old same old....you know get up...get dressed go to work...go to class same shit everyday nothing exciting!....*sigh* well all i gotta do is focus on my exam and that's it then I'm wal-marts bitch for the month..WORK WORK WORK WORK WORK AND WORK!!!! *sigh*....that's really all nothing much....

Assiassin's Creed II

2009-11-23T02:00:00.002-06:00

So picked up the new Creed game and gotta say... nice set more pics to come!

Update!

2009-11-16T23:07:00.001-06:00

k update on the page i posted before hand but done!

temp page

2009-11-16T16:35:00.001-06:00

just testing out the waters with this one! so its brif simple and what not just testing out the new program

Before (I) knew it, it was just the sound of the wind...

2009-11-14T01:10:00.002-06:00

Well ...wow haven't posted in awhile have I? well let's get ya all up to speed!

I am currently working on my manga like always ...at this moment i like where the story is going..its dark and wtf! and about 7 pages are done once i get up to 8 done ..i will start inking them and scaning them!!! oh! for the best part is i now own everything i need! Tablet! Manga Studio and all that's left is getting a MAC ....but that comes later in the years.....maybe i will sell my netbook...but we shall see ne?

theres nothing more to say

Chibi-comics are back!

2009-10-26T22:53:00.003-05:00

so new

RANDOM PAGE!

A brilliant GOLDEN TIME, I'll grab it with these hands

2009-10-23T00:15:00.002-05:00

With each path I take I make a new one with a new one made a memory is left. May it be a good or bad what matters is that it holds a reminder of where I been and what was done

(random post..each paragraph is a random thought,....soo be ready!)
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So I am now back from my Toronto Adventure and seem to gained another follow....hmmm interesting desu ne? well it was a good trip checking out the town and debating on what to do now in life...seeming like a waste of what I been doing really but hey lifes full of up and downs so over all looking at it as a game seems like Im losing but who knows

So I have all of these drawings and well many pages done and nothing really accomplised I have many story ideas and everything is all over the place I can't seem to stick to one story so Now I thought maybe is i try to to finish what pages I have and make them all one shot short stories and bond them into a mini book to see where that takes me but thats an idea i have for now I guess...

Guess...Lifes full of events that are always unexpected and so are the choices being made no one i guess can be really happy with themselves....but Im learning that the hard way like I always do...but that's what makes everything interesting I guess...sure I'm a gloomy person but hey th DOOM cloud that hangs over my head well it's there you just gotta believe it's there...just like the entrance to hogwarts...believe!!!!...BELIEVE IN IT DAMN IT!!!

Damn it all..there been times I asked myself...what is my purpose here? will I ever find someone? when you look you seem not to look hard enough....when you look hard you seem to miss something..when You fall you can't get up when you get up you can't seem to see when one can't see you become blind. when you are blind you can't see what's really close You've gotta be extra careful with The things that are close and dearest to you You know the closer you get to something The tougher it is to see it
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Will I ever be able to see it? who knows..but till then may this random post be known and not forgotten and when i re-read this I will ask myself wtf I was on or why did I write this...

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2009-10-10T23:38:00.001-05:00

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